Recently, I had a freak accident with a car door and the car door won. I was getting into a car and I opened the door and then bent down to pick something up. Just as I started to bend down, the door swung back and I jabbed the glass of the door deep into my right eye socket. Let me tell you, that was painful. I ended up with a large corneal abrasion on the top of my eye and a small one on the bottom.
The eye heals quickly, thankfully, but for the first two days my eye hurt so terribly bad. I couldn’t open the uninjured eye because my injured eye automatically tried to open and the pain was intense. So, I just sat in my chaise and kept my eyes closed. For two days. After the first two days, the swelling went down and I could open my eye, but then I noticed that my vision was impaired. I could see, but everything was very blurry. I developed headaches from the discrepancy in my vision in my left and right eye.
I was really concerned that I did some permanent damage due to the amount of impact caused by me bending down as the door swung back. It turns out that there was swelling behind my eye that took a little longer to resolve. My vision still doesn’t seem quite right but the eye specialist informed me that my eyes are getting older. That tickled me. Good thing it’s just my eyes getting older.
As I lay in my chaise with my eyes closed all day for two days, I had the opportunity to just relax and think. I mean, as much as you can relax while your eye trickles tears and you have stabbing pain in your eye. However, the point is, I was forced to just sit and do nothing. No computer. No Facebook. No Words with Friends. No books. No Nook. No nothing. I could listen to television but it was a bit disconcerting to listen and not see. Try it. You’ll see what I mean.
So, as I sat there doing nothing, my thoughts turned to what it would be like to be blind, and I realized that those of us that are healthy have so much that we just take for granted. I imagined what life would be like without EVER being able to see. Sight is a wonderful blessing to have. To be able to see the adorable face of my son and his little freckled nose, the beauty of God’s creation, or just watch t.v., is something that I don’t want to lose.
Then, of course, my thoughts went to a more spiritual implication of blindness. Or loss of vision. The Bible says in Proverbs 29:18, “Where there is no vision, the people perish…”. As this scripture came to mind, I thought beyond the physical loss of sight to the spiritual loss of sight. This is a verse that I have heard preached many times about people losing a vision of what God wants the church to do in this world. I could offer some discourse about the importance of the church having a vision of God’s purpose; however, while I sat with blinded eye(s), my thoughts were of a more personal nature.
I was forced to ask myself if I have lost my vision of what God’s purpose is for me. Or if I have ever found it. I personally struggle with my role of mother and wife and that of being a co-breadwinner to help reduce our debt. That is my struggle with what God’s plan is for me at home. Then there is the struggle of God’s plan for me in His kingdom. Outside my house. I know people who are called to preach and evangelize and people who are involved in various ministries. What is God’s plan for me? He has one. He has one for you as well. We are all called to do SOMETHING in the kingdom.
I realize that in order to fully know God’s plan for me, I must get a vision of the world outside of me. In order for that to happen, I must seek His face and His will in my life. The Message states this verse in this way, “If people can’t see what God is doing, they stumble all over themselves; but when they attend to what He reveals, they are most blessed.” Proverbs 29:18.
While I was walking around with a swollen eye, I stumbled around, falling over my feet, trying to navigate my way through my house. It was so disconcerting. I felt lost and out of sorts. I feel much the same way when I get so busy taking care of my own life, that I fail to consult the Lord who created me to do great things for His kingdom.
Is your vision impaired? Are you stumbling? Seek His face. It’s biblical wisdom. Not mine. “Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” Matthew 6:33
~There’s No Place Like Home!